Find Space for Your Heart Here
In the midst of busy lives, uncertainty & so much more, I hope that this blog will be a soft landing space for you. Find some of my heart, stories, and resources below, and please reach-out to me however I can support you. If there are additional topics you’d like to see on the blog, please feel free to email me!
I Wish You Could Come With Me.
A letter to my husband while we navigate a new round of IVF during a Global Pandemic.
A Mosaic of Emotions: The Next Adventure
Today I walked back into my RE’s office and found myself drifting through the motions….
Check-in, answer screening questions, have my temperature checked, get my parking validated, wait for a few minutes. Get called by a nurse, have my blood drawn (today took three sticks), return to the waiting room. Scroll absentmindedly on my phone while trying not to make eye contact with any other woman doing the exact same thing in another chair six feet apart from me. Hear my name called again. Walk to an exam room. Undress from the waist down, but never remove my mask…
A Mosaic of Emotions: When IVF Turns Out Successful
In September, 2018, we prepared for a frozen embryo transfer. This time, we felt more sure of ourselves. The procedures were familiar, the embryo genetically normal, our hearts a little stronger from the wear.
Once the embaby was on board, we began talking to her.
A Mosaic of Emotions: From IVF Baseline to Retrieval Recovery
Here's the thing about living with infertility - I’ve learned to hold hope in just a small pocket of my heart, sometimes hidden from my conscious all together, and oftentimes I’ve made it my business to charge ahead without expecting anything at all.
The Crippling Costs of Infertility
Four years ago, I learned how expensive it was to struggle with Infertility.
I live in one of the 16 states that offer SOME insurance coverage for Infertility treatment. I should consider myself "blessed"
However, I'm currently ignoring the growing pit in my stomach as I start putting my ducks in a row for our next round of IVF.
Around The Beanstalk
Guest Post: I clearly know the overwhelm of the IVF world. It was a long, hard road for us. I didn’t want other women to feel as overwhelmed as me, so I decided to do something about it. I started up a brand new business called Around the Beanstalk, as a nod to the son we lost, Jack. I wanted to create a legacy for him.
With Around the Beanstalk, I’m creating products to help support anyone going through IVF. I’m providing tools for people to navigate the IVF world – partially in physical products, partially through the development of a community and support system. It's my goal to build a large community of IVF warriors….a place where we can all feel safe to chat, vent and ask questions. A space to lift each other up and get through the crazy IVF world together.
“How do we make a family?”
The answer to this question is no longer as cookie cutter as it might have seemed
once before.
And yet, there are women and men who dread having to explain the answers.
That’s right…I said answers.
But, then again, why?
Infertility, Fertility Treatment & your Career
If you are anything like me, the journey to parenthood isn’t what you expected. I thought the hardest part of balancing my career with growing my family would be negotiating my maternity leave. Little did I know that the journey would start years before I had a baby, and present countless obstacles between getting (and staying) pregnant, and being successful in my career.
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When my daughter and her hopeful siblings are older, I know telling them these stories of their creation will mean so much to them, including the way that our lives changed each time. I know that I’m really proud of and grateful for the ways that we as a family have made room for Infertility, whether or not we thought it was fair or frustrating, and the ways that we fought tooth and nail to get to this moment in time. Building our family is much harder than we ever imagined, but we’re also not people who’ve ever said no to chasing our dreams.
Being Left Behind or Finding Your Tribe: Infertility in the age of Social Media
Two. Pink. Lines.
I’ve never wanted to see anything more in my life than two pink lines.
Two pink lines would mean that I’d succeeded, that I’d been triumphant, that my body did the thing I so desperately hoped, wished and worked for. Two pink lines would mean that I was pregnant. That my dream of motherhood was on its way to becoming a reality.