Find Space for Your Heart Here
In the midst of busy lives, uncertainty & so much more, I hope that this blog will be a soft landing space for you. Find some of my heart, stories, and resources below, and please reach-out to me however I can support you. If there are additional topics you’d like to see on the blog, please feel free to email me!
A Mosaic of Emotions: Motherhood & TTC All Over Again
Becoming a mom broke me open in ways I couldn’t have predicted.
48 hours after her birth, my daughter had some respiratory distress right as we were getting ready for hospital discharge. She was routed to the NICU for some additional monitoring, and I remember sitting cross legged in the chair next to her isolette, sobbing. I turned to my husband and told him that all of a sudden, it felt like my heart was living outside of my body.
Sendoff Sex - Intimacy Before IVF
Scheduled intercourse month after month in our TTC days had worn deep into our psyche, and then the dictated rules about when we were intimate during fertility treatments felt like we were barely in control of when and how we enjoyed each other. With Sendoff Sex, we found joy in the intentionality that that time would be special and that it would carry us through until the next time it was safe for us to be together that way.
I busted out the lingerie. We put together a playlist. We turned our phones on silent and really, connected. We both came with a freedom we had been missing, and it felt like an explosion of hope and frustration and anticipation of the months both behind and ahead of us.
Infertility Treatments: A Choice & Also A Challenge
You see, infertility is not a choice. If I am any indication, it seems that those who struggle to conceive want a baby so desperately that the medical diagnosis of Infertility seems cruel and ironic.
What happens next, after that diagnosis, it’s a choice.
A really really hard, really really complicated, really really sh*tty, really really hopeful choice that individuals and couples make every single day on whether to pursue fertility treatments.
Infertility in a Pandemic
Infertility is already unpredictable
Infertility comes with so much unpredictability to start. Then you’re forced to add in these “wildly unprecedented” times, and you’re left with a literal storm of questions. Of unknowns. Of silence.
When and why and how and where become whether and if and what if and even oh no.
It’s exhausting and emotional and so much to process.
Let’s Talk About Sex, {for a} Baby!
I think intimacy is a beautiful thing, much like everyone else, I’d assume.
I also have genuinely enjoyed being intimate with my husband since the start of our relationship. But our sex lives, and our attitudes toward having sex changed drastically over 2+ years of trying to conceive, and it’s not something I ever could’ve predicted.
Why, you ask?
Because NOBODY TALKS ABOUT THAT!