Find Space for Your Heart Here
In the midst of busy lives, uncertainty & so much more, I hope that this blog will be a soft landing space for you. Find some of my heart, stories, and resources below, and please reach-out to me however I can support you. If there are additional topics you’d like to see on the blog, please feel free to email me!
The Mental Load of Motherhood for my Embryos
The mental load of motherhood for my embryos means thinking constantly, sometimes non-stop, about what the next steps are, what I am doing to move them forward, and what has to happen to ensure one or both of these babies get to grow and thrive and join us earth side. It means thinking about my body, and our TTC journey, and the medications I’ve been on, and the one’s I’ve asked about but haven’t tried, and the failures we’ve had, and how those can keep pushing me forward. It includes plan A, and plan B, and plans C, D, E, F and G. It means thinking about contingencies and roadmaps and whats next and what’s lost and what can still happen. It’s finding patience in the wait. It’s finding ways to manage the anxiety in the wait. It’s all for my embryos. For our babies to be.
A Mosaic of Emotions: Returning to the RE & Seasons of Loss
Returning to the RE’s office had me full of mixed emotions.
On one hand, I was hopeful. I was ready to transfer one of our embabies back and to begin another pregnancy.
On the other hand, I was disappointed. I really had come to hope in the time since having my daughter that I’d be able to get pregnant on my own.
You Will Be Okay
When the nerves 3dp5dt makes you feel like your heart is going to pound out of your chest, you will be okay.
When you can’t sleep at night, wondering if your embaby is snuggled in tight, you will be okay.
When you convince yourself over and over not to POAS, you will be okay.
When you do finally POAS, in the middle of the night eight hours before your beta, you will be okay.
Infertility, Fertility Treatment & your Career
If you are anything like me, the journey to parenthood isn’t what you expected. I thought the hardest part of balancing my career with growing my family would be negotiating my maternity leave. Little did I know that the journey would start years before I had a baby, and present countless obstacles between getting (and staying) pregnant, and being successful in my career.
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When my daughter and her hopeful siblings are older, I know telling them these stories of their creation will mean so much to them, including the way that our lives changed each time. I know that I’m really proud of and grateful for the ways that we as a family have made room for Infertility, whether or not we thought it was fair or frustrating, and the ways that we fought tooth and nail to get to this moment in time. Building our family is much harder than we ever imagined, but we’re also not people who’ve ever said no to chasing our dreams.
Being Left Behind or Finding Your Tribe: Infertility in the age of Social Media
Two. Pink. Lines.
I’ve never wanted to see anything more in my life than two pink lines.
Two pink lines would mean that I’d succeeded, that I’d been triumphant, that my body did the thing I so desperately hoped, wished and worked for. Two pink lines would mean that I was pregnant. That my dream of motherhood was on its way to becoming a reality.